Being the freethinker that I am, I don't believe in materialistic realms where we are seperated after death. I do believe, however, in the state of heaven and hell. And in my case, I'm in hell.

I've got friends. Sure. Loads. Yet how many can tell me straight away, what's my birthdate? How many remembered last year? In form 3, only WanCi and Amanda remembered, while the rest didn't. Saufi constantly tells me that the class is looking out for me, but I can hardly figure that, by the transparent way I'm acknowledged. Sure, we sit together, but YOU being the "want to be with them" type, you won't talk to me, and you imagine as if I'm just a feather floating by, non interesting, non acknowledged.

I'm sick of doing nice things for people...

Good friends that I have, fate seems to drag me away from them. Suf, Nab, Zak...wtv. I used to think I was part of a group, but now it seems that I'm someone who's just a guest among them, not a part of it. The time that we get to spend together I'm not able to participate in, and even when I have the chance, things like going out for a movie with friends, or the Unity Dinner this Saturday that I was so looking forward to since I was gonna sit with my friends, was crushed by the fact that I HAVE to follow my family to Singapore on that VERY weekend.

A perfect time to spend with my friends, yet I have to fade away.

See how fate conspires?

I hate so many people.

Zakwan in Heaven.

*Hey Shungz, at least you've got friends that stick by your side, no matter how retarded the reason.