In the afternoon of 1 something, my phone rang. "TENG TIN WAR! TENG TIN WAR!(pick up phone!)"
I dragged my sorry carcass to it, and answered lazily. "Hmh...yeah..?"
Jiale: Wei Shiung! There's space in the Mcbeth trip! Hurry up! We're leaving in like 5 minutes!!!
Wtf? I was told by Amelia that I didn't make it for Mcbeth, since the buses were fully booked. But 6 people did not show up, and since I was in the waiting list, I got in. This is a little dejavuish for me, since I had also just got into the Petronas(a year ago around this month) 10 minutes before the bus was leaving.
Almost a year ago.
Note: This entry might take forever to load, due to 95 pictures. Will burst your modem.
Anyway, around 4 minutes after I had woken up, I found myself sitting in a bus with Zakhren, waiting for our departure. How I managed to bathe, brush, wash hair and gurgle listerine in that short amount of time I have no idea.
McBeth is a play written by Shakespeare. The Babel Theatre of England had a troupe on a world tour, and at the moment they were in Malaysia, performing inside the Performing Arts gallery. Somehow, I who had no idea about it, was sitting on a bus to the play.
And Hohoho! Look who's sitting behind together. Luzzio strikes AGAIN!
As the bus set off, I came to realize how sudden all of this was. Without even planning it, I had attended the two biggest events of the week for our school.
The bus ride was about 20 minutes, and since Sean was sitting behind us, zak him and I just gabbed nonsense. Thank you Zak for filling my tummy with Eminem's =)(the chocolate). This would be the 2nd time I've ever attended a musical act. About 2 or 3 years ago, my parents brought me to watch CATS in another theatre. Splendid. Am looking forward to an MPO performance one day.
We arrived in due time, just about 20 minutes before the show started. Amelia got our tickets, and I caught up with Cass and Adrian. Was looking for Suf and the rest, but couldn't find them amist the crowd.
I managed to get Sook Yi to pose for this shot. The architecure around here is just artistic.
I decided to follow Cass along, since I couldnt find my other friends. I've never seen her wearing a semi turtle neck and sleeveless before. Heh...
The crowd of students as we entered the theatre hall. Can you spot the famous faces?
It seems rival blogger Xiao Yu is on the case too.
Together with Nicholas. We tried taking a tri-shot, where each photographer took the other two, but time was running so off went that idea into the drain.
The theatre was upstairs, and the tickets were checked there. I had to hold on to Adrians hand not to loose them. Quoting Adrian, "Cass hold my hand I don't mind. YOU let go."
I found myself sitting next to Hsien Yang(who looked bored throughout the entire play) and a very pretty girl =) The seats were multi-colored, and there was fake mist everywhere, probably to discourage photo flashes. Brilliant.
The fog probably bounces the lights so many times till you can't even see the stage.
l-r Sook, Son, Cass. Adrian leaned back, avoiding my cam. Cibai. =(
The play was spectacular. Even with the hard to understand lines and plot, I enjoyed the actors dramatic perfomance, and how clear their voices were.
During the play, I was kinda scared. The apparently pretty girl was bored, and was cracking her knuckles. Sigh.
The play was about one and a half hours long, and worth every minute of it. This is one play I trule recommend, even if you're a brainless jock.
Check it out.
We slowly marched out of the theatre, with McBeth's last words still ringing in my ears. "Life is but a mere shadow, a poor player, filled with fury, signifying nothing". Or something like that.
I finally caught up with my usual bunch. Nabilah and Rent Kent were waiting outside the toilet for Sufern. The buses were to arrive a little later, so we students were given some time to camwhore around. Prefect!
One thing I realized was that anything here costs a fortune. Just the tickets for the play was RM21, but a SINGLE CAN of Sprite cost RM5!!!! WTF!? I was thirsty and desperate, since it was already 4oclock and I had not eaten anything yet.
Anyway, on to camwhoring.
I don't think they ate. My famous can of Sprite sits next to Jiale. l-r Jiale, Sprite, Joshua, Ai-tert/Wai-Jean, Andy Lim, Su Lynn, Andrew, Stephanie, and Ai-tert/Wai Jean.
Jade!!!
Apparently THIS is Vern Sheng's bad side. ...sigh
I stepped out of the theatre, and took some pics of the surroundings. There were alot of structures there that had no reason to exist whatsoever. Just to look pretty I guess.
Sufern, Poon with Zakhren behind, and half of Rent Kent.
I persuaded Sook Yi for another picture. Heh ^^
Xiao Yu and Evonne. This one's going on the calendar, boys.
Adrian looked cute in this pose so I sneaked a shot. Is he pinching his ass?
A very nice picture of Nabilah and Su Fern. It's currently my wallpaper. I've posted some wallpaper sized pictures at the end of this entry =)
MYC, Grace, Cass and Amelia. Below them were nothing but water. Eek.
Another picture worthy of putting as a wallpaper. This one's for Guo Joon! XDD
Some random group pics.
The darkness
Mr. Jacob joins the clan of camwhorers. Haha!
Looky there!
Looky everywhere!
A pose by Xiao Yu. Another present to Guo Joon!!
The whole group pic. You can slowly look for yourself =P
Sook and Ame posing for Cass's cam.
Another picture wallpaper worthy. Up lane: Vei Vern, Amelia and Sook Yi.
Down lane: Grace, Sonia, Cass and Mei Yoong.
Just a different post. Cant think of anything funny to say this time -.-
Mr. Jacob and Siew Li. Sean asked Zak what he thought about this picture, which Zak politely replied, "Two literature enthutiasts.". Ha.
You'll have to tilt your head for this one.
A great tree. Notice below that Cass, Grace and Adrian are trying to avoid the water sprinklers as it popped to life, soaking them.
Cass goes SPLAT!
Hanzz playing with the water sprinklers!
Nyahahahah! Penis power!
That's Zakhren with the umbrella! Hahahahahha!!!
Poor Jonathan looked bored. =(
Joshua insisted on a picture with me. To tell you the truth, I've decided not to post a picture or even take a pic of myself before I slim down, and look less crappy.
He pinched my navel and insisted.
Alright, back to pretty faces. Aitert, Stephanie, Wai Jean, Su Lynn and Jiale.
HAHA! Sean and Zakhren looking like the poster for Sepet!
OKok, back to girls. I just realized here that Evonne reminds me of Sabrina. Got that...look *blushes*
I sat down with them for lunch, but before we even got to order, the bus had arrived.
With Xiao Yu. OKOK! I get what you guys mean. I have a habit or smiling to only ONE side when I smile. One Sided =)
Just a last pic of the scenery. It looks like a flat image because it IS a flat image. The rocks we see are reflected on the surface of the water.
Sean imitating McBeth back in the bus. No. That's not me behind.
Somehow there's a warm feeling whenever we reach back home. Which reminds me of my family's trip to Vietnam this end of the year. Heh, can't wait.
I stopped by Nabilah's house for awhile, and we took a pic of the cat. Cute lil Trixie is now a grown up sexy cat.
Overall it's just been a very tiring day. Tiring, but fun.
Ah yes, the wallpapers. Click on them to view the images in full size. All pix are in a 800x600 size.
Am pretty tired since it's been a stressfully hot day. Most of the usual dota-ers are in Nic's party/gathering... and shutterfly's being an ass at the moment, so I can't post pics. Will edit this entry with pictures of sportsday as soon as shutterfly is back and running.
Bah.
EDIT: Okay cool. I just remembered I could use flickr.com too, since photobucket's now also a bitch.
I was supposed to be at school by 7am to check out the cybercafe's with Sufern, but my phone forgot to ring it's alarm, so I woke up around 9.45, screaming profanities and rushing to the shower, and slipping on the wet floor and hit my head against a wall. Not a good way to start.
As much as I was called a 'co-organizer' of the netball tournament, I didn't do a single thing, leving it all to Jia Jun. Sigh. Will give him a great big hug this monday as an apology.
LEO was in charge of 3 competitions, which were the anime drawing contest, netball competition and scrabble competition. Basically, as a slacker, I just went around taking photoes.
First place I decided to check out was the Futsal competition ala Interact Club. This was no doubt
the most happening event for Sports day. Competition was stiff, and there are more fights here outside the court than inside(particularly with the referee).
According to Jade, it was a very very long game because the boys kept kicking the ball so hard it constantly went 'out' of the court.
Resulting in a waste of about 20 seconds to retrieve the ball, get back in place, and continue the game. Hello Nima~!
Amidst the sweaty boys and cussin, a young couple stands out. Awwwwwww~ Xiao Yu and Guo Joon. =)
Next stop, was the volleyball court. The vb's were having their own competition, so I decided to get some shots.
No problem finding camwhorers here. l-r Sonia, Cass and Wan Ci.
I bent down, and managed this interesting picture with the sky as a backdrop. Nice, eh? =)
No surprise seeing Nicholas here. He's the Selangor team captain, did you know that? I'm impressed.
Whack!
Just come close up shots. I shiver to think what they're thinking about me at this point. Loser camera person? Sigh.
Amelia practicing her spikes.
I felt guilty, so had to drop by the netball competition for awhile to see how JJ was doing.
I've never liked netball. It's boring, and the rules just spoils any adrenaline. I suppose the 3 steps only rule stops anyone from being tok-sek(solo) and encourages teamwork. Still a boring game to me though. -.-
And the hoop is IMPOSSIBLE to get the ball into. Sheeesh.
Apparently the girls in RED are the school team. What makes me laugh is that Jeeking, Albert, Aaron Teoh, Eugene, Kingsley and some others had also joined. To me, they were the meanest, toughest, tallest people in the competition around. The rest were just girls and young boys from the afternoon session. And they got 3rd place out of 6. Lol.
The Fantastic 4's. Well, 5, since Albert says that Invisible Girl is in this pic. You just can't seen her.
l-r Kingsley, Eugene, Jeeking and Albert.
Next stop was the Anime drawing contest done by Sue Keng. I'm quite envious, actually. I had one planning last year, but it was put to a stop since Ex- President Veronica said I should concentrate on the uniforms instead. Sigh, and Amanda was happy to be a judge too...
Aha! What do we have here? Charmaine aka Kazeki! No surprise seeing her here.
Her submition. Love the way she uses that red ink.
Other entries:
This one's pretty cool. The guys got a weird face shape though.
I LOVE this one. It's so neat, and creative. I'm sure the artist draws comics.
Her chin's pretty sharp, but this one's nice too. She reminds me of Aerith of FF7 somehow.
And this one Selphie of FF8. Kawaaiii~
Another creative picture. All done with just a pencil and rubber.
Stopped by the Scrabble competition to have a lookysee. Carrie girl =)
There were only 3 games though. My Form 1 class teacher is here! =D I'm surprised she still remembers me.
With the events covered, I decided to go look around for some celebrity shots. Vern Sheng smiles his lovely face here. According to him, he looks good in this angle, since the other side has lotsa pimples. =/
Jade posing. She's not really taking my ugly mug, just posing.
Urgh. 100% interact! Jade, Stephanie and Jiale
Cass and Aaron. I told him he looked constipated posing next to Cassandra. keke.
Couldn't get many camwhorers, so I just decided to go around taking random pictures.
Block Flora, with the endless blue as a backdrop. Love this picture too.
Love the sky.
*sigh*
Anyway, after playing a few rounds of basketball of Kenny, I walked back home and slept. Tiring day, it was.
Pic of the day:
Taken early in the morning. Nice sky, eh?
Anyways, life's boring, and no one's there for me at the moment, so I'm gonna go to the shower and cry my eyes out now. Nitez all. Enjoy your weekend!(or what's left of it)
Bleach is currently one of the most popular anime's out there. I've been addicted to it for about half a year now, since naruto's been abit slow, so I've decided to share the fun! =)
Bleach revolves around Ichigo, the orange haired boy as seen above, who is just 15 years old and has the ability to see spirits! One day, he accidentally steals Kuchiki Rukia's(the black haired girl on the far right) Shinigami(Death God) powers. Because of this, she forces him to take her place as a Shinigami until they find a way to return back her powers. A Shinigami, or Death God, has the responsibility of making sure Hollow's do not harm people. Hollows are spirits binded to earth by a strong desire, and satisfy their hunger by eating the souls of people(possibly even Shinigamis). A Shinigami's job is to make sure that whenever a Hollow appears, it is instantly exterminated before anyone gets hurt. The weapon of every Shinigami is called a Soul Cutter, which destroys the evil spirit and sets it free back to the Heaven Realm.
I've only read the manga though. Some people like Amanda said the anime's drawings are not as good as the manga, and are abit unnacurate at times, while Zhang Rei says "Kuchiki Rukia is damn fucking hot in the anime la! *slobbers*". So I'm still pending on that thought. The manga is good enough to satisfy you though if you're too lazy to download the animes(big files about 140mb per episode)
One of the best things I like about Bleach is that every weekly chapter comes with a little poster from the mangaka(artist), drawing his characters in the coolest fashions possible (like seen above). Despite having a strong fanbase of Byakuka squealing fan-girls and Orihime's Boobs FC members, Bleach is still not as popular as Naruto. THis is probably due to the old marketing strategy concept that stuff like PokeMon has proved. Like PokeMon, Naruto has a a stronger and bigger imaginary world of Ninja's, elementals, skills, and the concept where anyone could start being one. Like PokeMon, exactly. So, I guess majority(and the market) prefers this kinda stuff, since there're so many types of Naruto merchandises available to be cashed in. I don't really care though. Both Bleach and Naruto are good, though Naruto has more interesting battles which are drawn more detailedly. Bleach on the other hand is only so so, but the graphic level is very high, with limbs being cut off and heads exploding. (nice! ^^V)
The drawing style of Bleach is VERY different from most manga's. Not all the girls are watery giant eyed freaks, and there's something ROUGH about the way the mangaka(artist) draws that makes it stand out from other manga's. I'm guessing that the hair of the characters have something to do with the title(Bleach).
Despite all the fighting, there're sort of hints of romance, though no characters in the manga are officially coupled yet. There's obviously something between Ichigo and Kuchiki, despite how they keep talking to each other rudely like "Hey asshole, I didn't ask you to save me!" or "Shut up. I'm here so it's too late to run anyway."
Good drawing, nice plot, and fantastic characters, this is definitely a good anime/manga to catch. To all narutofans, this is probably another addition to your arsenal you won't want to miss. For a good free read on the manga, you can always visit Bleach7.com
Make sure you look out for Orihime! Holy crap her boobs are HUGE!
In the meantime, despite being a hardcore fan of Naruto and Bleach, I'm taking a rest and watching a more quiet and jiwang anime: Fruits Basket! ^^
Shigure-Yuki-Tohru-Kyou Thanks Xiaoo for getting me the episodes!
Possibly the cutest anime ever! ^^
Extra points for making Serious Faced Yuki here
-for transforming into a little white mouse everytime a girl 'huggles' him. (You can see the same purple eyes~)
Blog song has changed to jiwang rapper Eminem's - Like Toy Soldiers.
The thing I find interesting nowadays, is that the other blogs are finally starting to actually write their rants and true expressions as entries, instead of Boon Heng's frequent tuitun pictures of gossip and made up conspiracies. Dissastifaction with one another, or about a general issue. Sometimes even making fun of something. Sure, we'll laugh, but there will always be at least ONE person who will get offended, and flame your post.
Let's say I posted something about... Indonesians. As I am inside my own country and my own blog, isn't it my right to speak what I have to say? Like how their thinking is still very traditional, and alot of them dislike Malaysians because even though we aren't practicing the Islam ways 100%, we're far better economically than they are. 10 times, in fact. Out of 9 comments, 6 people will agree, 2 would try and understand more, but 1 would feel offended straight away and post something like this:
tEh fLaMeR: You stupid boy. What do you know? You're just 16. I've been through things much more than you, and you Malaysians can sucks my brown cock cos you're all gonna rot in hell! idiot, you think you know everything, don't you?
Or that someone who forgot to read the entire entry and instantly jumps down your throat after reading just the title. As much as I think these kinda people are like a pimple in the arse of internet users, there's pretty much nothing we can do about it. Our blog is our blog, and they have the right to comment. Although I DO find it weird that if someone doesn't like what we write, why don't they just go away? No, they HAVE to write an essay long comment that's even longer than the entry itself. Funny thing is, if I see a long flame, I just skip like 90% of it.
tEh fLaMeR: You stupid boy I seriously think you suck bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla blab lab lab lab lab labl abl abl abl abl abl bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla you suck bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla blab lab lab lab lab labl abl abl abl abl abl bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla you suck bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla blab lab lab lab lab labl abl abl abl abl abl bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla you suck bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla blab lab lab lab lab labl abl abl abl abl abl bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla so FUCK you!
Usually, seeing a comment like this, I'd have jumped down and have a flame war with the idiot. But...I've come to learn that if you want to fix all your opinions to be 100% public friendly, then you have no life. Because everyone has their own opinions, and that's what makes us unique. So, as a blogger, I'm not allowed to dislike something, and have to act PERFECT and that everything makes me happy and smiles?
My parents and sister left for Kedah early this Sunday morning, and will only be back this Monday night. So...I'm in charge of the house till then. It's strange, though, just one day by myself, and I have come to realize about a dozen things which I took for granted, like taking care of the dog, watering the plants, cooking, and more. Sigh.
My mom gave me Rm50 for food, but since I'm too lazy to eat out, I just decided to pocket the money and feed on stuff that was already lying around the house.
Besides a 6pack maggi mee and light snacks, my house was totally empty of any filling food. So, i had to improvise, and
had sparkling juice for lunch,
and a whole tube of Oreo's for dinner.
A totally balanced diet, ain't it? Haha, okay fine, it's not. I miss the vegetables, the meat, the egg, and the RICE. OMG, the rice! *slivers*
I need real food...maybe order pizza for lunch tomorrow? Haih.
Blog song has changed to Black Eyed Peas' - Hey Mama
Boon Heng is a hypocrite. He keeps saying to me that it's not nice to keep on blogging about him and Ooi Hong having gay relationships. But then, wtf is this?
Haha! Boon Heng's stupid 'photoshopping' skillz, which is actually just a bunch of text here and there.
And also, since BH's made a pact with me that if we stole each other's stuff, at least link. So PLEASE visit his blog for the original thing. =)
And lazy to blog, except...something I wanna say.
I dropped by at Nabilah's house today, and already there was 'Sufern And Leon', and 'Aaron And Nabilah'. Now, notice why I PAIRED their names together like that? Well, that's because the two pairs, are coupled. Yes. And you have no idea how lonely it feels to be inside a house, and be the only person there who isn't coupled.
Sufern and Leon on the couch lying down snuggling, while Aaron is swinging Nab here and there by grappling her waist. I hear giggling, laughing, and see the smiles of lovers.
So all I did was sit at a corner and try to start a conversation with the cat.
Sigh, I'm gonna die sad and lonely.
Just some random pics from my handphone:
Khe Chun wearing a Cheong-Sam for Sumbangsih. =)
This would be Boon Heng's butt. See how nice and tight it is...Eh. Wait a minute. Shit, that's mine. Zakwan!!!!!!
Khe Chun and Xue Mei. Strangely, kc's head looks inflated here. =/
Sufern finally realizes her dream of becoming a guitarist. In this pic she's holding her award, the Broken Guitar Head Belonging to Vern Sheng Award!
Poor Vern Sheng.
A pic of me WITHOUT my gel and Cass. Omg don't ask me why I posted this pic.
*cough*, for a pic of how I look when not having bad hair day, click on this pic. I BEG U.
Sometimes KC just looks Cute to a capital 'C'.
And sometimes she just doesn't give a very good pose.
It's proud owner is Zakwan. I hope Amanda's reading this =)
Look at the left side of my blog and you'll notice a total makeover for the links section. Of course, the pictures' quality has been lowered to no more than 30kb each, so that you wont take 10 minuts just to load it all.
NO reshoots, and I'm not listening to anyone say "Eh I don't like that pic la..." cos in my opinion this photoes capture your best side. Anyway, you'll notice some links still haven't any photoes with it. This isn't cos I'm bias, but more of because I don't have any of your pictures. I'll try and look around the blogosphere for it, but if you want your link and photo up faster, send me a picture of yourself. No need for editing, since I'll do it myself. Thanks!
For those that are interested in doing the same, here's an example of the source codes.
EDIT: Okay, fine. I won't be an arse. Happy Merdeka, fellow Malaysians...our country has now reached it's 48th birthday, and we're proud to say, even without them Brits, we're still standing =). In fact, we're growing faster than ever. We've got a sattelite up in space, we've got broadband, we've got cable, we've got cyber cafe's, we've got Nuclear Plants, we've got dotA, and best of all my family had sparkling and peanuts to celebrate this very, very, very memorable event.
But think again. Our satellite was BOUGHT from other countries, not made by us. And broadband's bandwith is not from Malaysia either...it's from Hong Kong. And why do we watch cable? Because malaysia's film industries still SUCK. I turn on TV3 once in awhile and all I see is...malay woman eating breakfast, lunch, and dinner. Then sleep, visit husband at work, and more eating. Oh, plus driving around with Proton Cars too.
As much as we say we're 'free', it sure doesn't seem that way, does it? The luxuries we have, are from other countries. Name me one electronical device in your house that is a Malaysian brand. None.
Vision 2020 doesn't look that good if we're still depending on other countries for goods and stuff like these. We may be 'free' from invaders, but our mind is still controlled by foreign influences. Our local newspapers buy it's International News from Reuters, did you know that? What our contry knows, is based on what is given. We don't FIND OUT or PRODUCE. We buy from people. We don't make.
Then there's the thought about freedom. As much 'rights' as we citizens have, it's sad to say, it isn't much. We're not allowed to questions things like "Why is it that the Bumiputera act is un-confrontable? Isn't the natives of this lan the Ibans and Kadazans, not the Malays?"
If anyone was to question the goverment, they'd probably be locked up for 'going against the country.'
And then there's freedom from tradition. Malaysia has this ideology that "Unlike other countries, WE HAVE MORAL VALUES." Pretty much bullshit in my opinion. Relationships between neighbours are close to zero, and people have no respect for public property as well. While walking, I'd see rubbish here, signboards broken and walls vandalized. In countries like America, these things would be dealth with IMMEDIATELY. But not in dear old Malaysia. Reaction takes like half a year, and the cops are as corrupted as the criminals themselves. Our "boleh-lah" attitude, or "anything goes", is a lump in the arse of our society.
And now, about GENUINE freedom. I'm sure all of you think "Uh. Yay, merdeka. Can I go back to my com now, mom? Badawi's done cheering." That would be because we've never felt oppression, and to have our lives controlled by others, not ourselves. No freedom to decide what is what, or how to do things.
48 years ago, our country was no more a country, but more of a PROPERTY. Imagine being born as another's property. No freedom, and to obey what they do. Why was our ancestors so eager for freedom? Why is it that even without flashy lights that we have these days, or loudspeakers, 48 years ago, when Tunku Abdul Rahman announced our country was free, were the cheers LOUDER then anything we've had ever since. Because they understood, and savoured it. Only those that have not tasted it, can value the true meaning of freedom.
But once again, are we really that free?
I read Jade's blog, and it seems she's so worried about her father finding out she's a Christian, like he'd tear her Bible to shreds if found.
So if a person, even within her family, is not given the freedom of Faith and Believe, what point is there to say we are free? We ALL deserve a right to believe in whatever we want, be it Buddhism, Christianity, Hindu or Islam. I can understand that her father wishes only the best for her in his believe. But ah, that's what it is. HIS believe. She has her own, and he has his.
To say that MY FAITH is true, and pushing, or FORCING it upon others, is a mockery of our so called 'freedom'. Everyone has a right. Jade's father should RESPECT the fact that Jade has a purpose in life, and not go against it(if found).
We hate one another because of our differences. We're afraid that the ways of others would wipe out ours, so we mock one another, by so making us feel more confident of ourselves. But in the end, there will be nothing.
Malaysia is physically freed. But what holds us back is NOT other countries, but ourselves. We need to change, Malaysia.
Happy Merdeka to everyone, black, brown, yellow, tall, short, female, male, young and old.
The clock above the reception counter stroked 1am with a little buzz. I sighed and looked at my cell: 3 messages.‘I heard about Adrian! How’s he!? From: Mom’ ‘OMG. Katie, are you all right? Adrian, is he alright? From: Jeffrey’ ‘I heard about what happened. Pray for the best. Our hope is with you. From: Faith’
I shut my eyes, and didn’t bother replying them. Even I myself could still not register the simple truth. A stubby little nurse brought me a cup of tea, “Drink this.” I shook my head without even looking up at her. I started to get annoyed when she sat down next to me, and felt a hand on my back. “Whether your husband lives or not, I’m sure he doesn’t want to see you this way,” she said in a soft voice. Something about those words cut deep inside. I was being selfish. Mom and my friends were concerned, and if I didn’t tell them, they’d be even more worried.
“He’ll be alright,” she said with a smile, and went back to her duties.
Adrian wasn’t my husband yet, but I decided not to tell her so. Deep in our hearts, we were already soul-mates. I turned my phone back on and slowly typed back. “I’m fine...Adrian wasn’t so lucky. He had no time to dodge the car after pushing me aside. He sacrificed himself for me…” there was so much more I wanted to say, but I just stopped there and pressed send. The lights at the ER door were still lit, meaning his fate had not yet been sealed. I tried to recall back how we first met, hoping it’d sooth my soul and let time pass lest dreadfully…
-there's supposed to be nothing here. but since xiao yu is not very bright, i'll tell. this downwards, is a flashback-
Five o’ clock, and my brother was still not ready. I went upstairs, making as much noise as I could thumping up the staircase, and knocked on his door, “SAM! IF WE’RE NOT AT THE VETS BEFORE IT CLOSES SPIKE’S PROBABLY GONNA DIE!!!” I heard little voices inside, but couldn’t make sure what it was, as it stopped with the sound of a ‘click’. “Coming…” he whined from inside. What was he doing…masturbating? Urg, I’d rather not think about it. His doorknob turned, and a little midget with brown hair walked out. His face had a lot of freckles, and he looked like one of those geeks you’d see in the cartoons, dorky and all. This was my brother. There are times I’d want to kill him, but then I’d also kill for him.
“Spike’s sick. Don’t you care about that dog?” I asked, and shoved him towards the staircase by his back. He shook my hand off, “Not really.” Even though that’s what he said, I’m sure Sam would’ve been the first to cry if his, yes HIS, dog passed away.
Sam helped me lift our Golden Retriever into the back of the car, and shut the doors. I noticed he was trying not to look at Spike’s wound below the belly. We drove to town in our dad’s old Piece of Shit car. I’m not sure how long it’s been since he sat inside it ever since he bought the new Nissan.
We reached the vet’s in apple time, about half an hour before it closed. I nudged Sam who was asleep…
A sharp tap on my shoulder woke me from my flashback. It wasn’t the nurse, but an elderly doctor. Behind him was my family. Dad had no expression in his face. That was his way of showing sadness. Mom had tears in her eyes, and Sam looked like he didn’t care much, leaning against a wall, talking on the phone.
I turned to look at the ER door. The lights were off. How long had I dozed off? Where was Adrian? My mind raced through the worst, and I grabbed hold of the elderly doctor’s coat, “How is he!?”
-end of this chapter-
Got my haircut today. Looks...weird.
Messed around with gel, mou'se, and wax to get this funky hairdo. Look closely at this picutre and you'll realize something.
The candidates are Jonathan, Aaron Teoh, and Sufern. Sigh, sad bunch. But I won't be talking about either of them today. Nope.
The thing I hate most about perhimpunan is the crowds. So many people around me, making me feel insecure. I hate looking at others, because that would make me feel even more spiteful of my own self. Was there a time you walked by yourself in Sunway Pyramid, with, let's say family perhaps. And you see a bunch of people around your age. Don't you feel down? I do. My friends were too busy with themselves during the holidays, which left me all alone.
But most of all, what I hate most about myself, is not the inside, but the outside. Oh, the moody angry temperamental personality I have, THAT I can stand. But no, not the fat chin(yeah thanks nab, you make my life a whole lot fucking happier by reminding me), the hair that doesnt seem to ever stand, making me look like a fucking dork(which i probably am).
And so I guess we've come to the root of why I like being alone. I despise myself. And NO, none of your sappy "no la lai, it's not like that..." will do anything, because only when I'm aware of facts, that I don't make a fucking fool of myself. If I'm happy, and then sooner or later I get looks like "Uh...he shouldn't be like that." So good. If I'm always emiting an aura of negative waves, then at least I wont have people around me to make me feel even worst.
In school. Hah. My class. I seriously want to fit in, but NO. There's this TRIBUNAL between BH, Colin and Ben. Khe chun jamie and the rest treat me like this retard who should be sympathized on. So what do I do? I dont WANT to be alone, but there isn't much of a choice, now, do I?
Oh wei shiung, get me a birthday gift? Huh, where was mine? Here's something interesting: Colin and I shared for Cass's present last year. Cass and I shared for Colin's present this year. Now, how come I didn't get anything? Ha! That's cos im hated. I dont fucking CARE how much the present cost or what it IS. The fact is, Colin gets, Cass gets, so what does that make me? Different? I fucking hate my friends for things like this. It's not about the present. It's about the thought. I TRY to be nice, but sadly, they cant.
And whenit comes down to it, ORGANIZING. Sometimes the only reason I'm ever invited, is because "oh lai...you know how to book the tickets." ITS NOT BECAUSE THEY DONT KNOW HOW TO BOOK FUCKING MOVIE TICKETS! It's because they dont want to be the target of blame when things screw up. People cancelling last minute, people asking me to group up a dotA game and not showing up their fucked up faces for it, leaving everyone angry with me and think of me as this fucking idiot who's temperamental! Temparemental? YOU HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA IF YOU WERE IN MY SHOES, FUCKER!
I'm fucking sick of everyone. Literally. Heat got to me, and I'm sick at home. Hah. Fuck you all.
