My hair's growing long at bad places. My hair is uncontrollable, with my mom being only content if I was cut nearly MONK-like...my moustache and beard are sprouting like mushrooms, forcing me to shave almost everyday.
But what I hate most is my hair on the legs. SuFern laughed her ass off when I wore short pants to jog with her. "You look gay!" she said. Sigh. It's damn hairy for a boy my age, and since my skin is pearl white, it makes it look like a pak kai. With fur. Ew.
So I took the plunge.
Lalang be gone!
It took me half an hour just to fully shave one leg...but I like the result =)
Tada! Clean and smooth. Softer than a baby's bottom. Seriously. I'm addicted to rubbing my hand against the skin to feel how smooth it is. =d
I look like as if somone has punched me on the face. Sigh. And no one did.
The sweet-apparently NOT innocent-Jade. With her, a dream boy her height =)
President of the Nothing Happens club.
And this picture of Zak is for Nab. Yes, squeal in orgamsic pleasure, Nab >=D
Nicolette snaps back at me.
These were just some pics from yesterday when Colin, the com club president, asked us to go to SUNWAY to get posters for the club message board. And then maybe a movie, food, drinks, more food, and shopping for a gift for KC.
I'm in a very hyper and overconfident mood at presently 8.54am. It could probably because I jaga malam at my Buddhist center and didn't have a blink of sleep, or maybe the mosquitoes that fed on my poor leg had some alterating gene. I can be... MOSQUITOEMAN. Bitten by a radioactive mosquitoe. I'll suck crime one by one! Nyahahah!
=) And while I'm having this overconfident mood, I'll say what I've never said in my entire life.
I'm damn handsome liao.
The following are pics are from my friendster account:
The last one abit cacat. But nevermind XD
Anyways, don't mind me. I'm just whoring my Friendster Profile, cause it's been dead since Amanda's testimonial in NOVEMBER last year. =( sad right?
I'll be back to my usual "i hate myself" mood soon enough, so no worries.
Edit 9.21am: Sigh. I hate myself =(
Just kidding.
Edit: Even though it's pretty obvious to me, I suddenly can't get this sentence out of my mind:
I think there are many reasons to why I tend to cry. It could be loneliness, or just the feeling of inferioty that I get from everyone around me. Why can't I be more funny like him, or be as soft and calm like her? Wherever I turn, I see people that I envy, people that possibly hate me, and it is really so hard to find people that are truly, in a way, what I can call friends.
There are people who are smart, athletic, and charming. Often I find myself competing with them for something which I am desperate for, and usually, resulting in failure.
Khe Chun has been somewhat annoyed by me lately, because I think even her calm personality has its limits. I even forgot that it was her birthday today. As soon as I got home from school, I went to Subang Parade to get her a gift. I was hoping I could've made up with her again, so I dropped by her house as soon as possible to pass the present to her. And obviously, she had went out with friends to celebrate. I stood outside smacking my forehead in disbelieve at how silly I was, and left the present on top of her gate before heading home.
I may seem like I take my friends for granted, but it's far from that. I'm rash and quick tempered by nature, only because the rage and hate seems to fill the void of loneliness and depression. I probably feel that by being angry at others, and loning myself to a corner, things will work out. But they never do. It's probably much simpler to calm and ease down by joining conversations, without care whether they acknowledge you or not. Yet why do I still not try?
I keep hitting myself whenver I argue with Su Fern. I know I'm in the wrong, but my mood swings and bad temper tend become a burden, and I'll find myself apologizing to her a few moments later(or days).
I want to control myself. I try to control myself.
I'm pretty much not close to Cassandra anymore. What used to be a good friendship is now a "hi" and "bye" relationship. I think the only time we ever talk is when I see her in the corridors, all we exchange are "hey"s and "wassup"s. It's like the closeness that we used to have never existed. Does the barrier of distance really effect friendship? I used to think in Form 4 that even though we would be in different classes, I could still keep a close friendship. I guess I was wrong.
I'm starting to think... what will be my first words when Amanda comes back in June? Will I go out to see her, or will I hide away because I know that if I saw her face, the mixed feelings will being to swirl once again inside me, and together with the joy of seeing her, will come anger and frustration because I'm not even close to her.
I can be funny at times, and plain nice. A livewire infact. Yet whenever she's around, I keep quiet. Because I'm afraid that anything funny that I do, anything that makes me HAPPY will turn her off or give her the impression im some silly fool. For example, I can simply give Benjamin a gay hug and say "Mmmmmmm...I love you Ben" as a joke, and people will laugh, and we'll all have a good time. Yet whenever she's around, I couldn't. It was unthinkable. Everything about her makes me feel happy, yet scared.
I suppose on the day she arrives, I'll drop by her house and give her a welcome back gift or something. When no friends are around, I won't be shy to talk to her. And that'll probably be the last time I'll ever see her. ...
Interesting how it feels, knowing that you'll never see the most beautiful person in your life ever again.
Heh.
With Xiao's help, I've been working on a story that I want to submit for Gemala's English Corner. I was generally happy with the work, but I can't say the opinions of the people who read it are assuring. It's been said to be too deep for Gemala...
I hate it when this happens.
Life's so full of restrictions, dissapointments, and sadness. Yet there are the rare moments of joy which I seem to take for granted.
The web owner of a popular website www.purepwnage.com has put up a clip of his hair for auction on e-bay.
...and so far, he's got a bid up to USD7,877 for it.
Imagine that!
"hey n00bs.. buy my hair rofl.. i need 2 buy a tv =P.. a desk n chair wuld be wtf uber 2..
l8r"
This is a real wtf knn cbb moment man. I dont think my hair would fetch up to even one ringgit, since Puan Tan cut my hair in school for being too long yesterday. Obviously she thinks its not worth anything, or she'll pick it up and put into her bag =.=
Imagine if XiaXue cut her hair...or Kennsia's pubic hair...and put on auction. Heck, I think SuperStars should start taking this new extra cash route.
I'll have to work harder on this blog...and hopefully one day someone will buy a clip of mine for Rm5k. Twice the price for a snip from below.
My cousin Hong Fei got married last Saturday, and alot of the Ho relatives came down to Malaysia to celebrate it.
Now, the Ho family, which is my mom's side, is a HUGE family. My great grandfather had 5 wives, and about 13 children. These 13 children had kids of their own, and their own kids had kids. It's SOOO huge, that because my grandfather is the 7th child, my mom is my grandfather's 5th child, and I'm my mom's 2nd child, my codename in the family is 7.5.2
Hoho, anyway, the wedding started in the morning at the Church, so here's some pictures.
My cousin Derek and I sat in the car with his sister Jacky and her bf Ted. We almost lost our way cos the Bridegroom's dad, who was supposed to lead us, was so anxious to get to the wedding I think he forgot about us =.=
The best man Bryan and my cousin, Hong Fei.
My uncle lent his car to be used, and according to him, his BMW car is NOT happy about having Mickey and Minnie on his front. Apparently it's eyes are glaring.
Sitting with Derek, Jolene, Jacky and Ted(half faced in this pic).
A huge Cross on top of the Mass Hall.
We waited abit for the bride to appear, since it's sorta an unofficial thing that the bride must always be fashionably late.
A close up shot of Derek. I was bored while waiting =.=
Finally, the bride arrives with her grandfather. I don't know why, but the men who bring the brides to the church for passing onto the groom always has to put on a stern face, as if putting THE FEAR into grooms the power of In-laws.
All stood up. I won't go into the minor details of the usual "I do" ceremony, but I'd like to mention that the Minister kept me(and my cousins) laughing. For one, he's probably Chinese educated, because he couldn't pronounce "L". So each time he mentioned God's blessings, he'd say "May God breast you." I'm sorry we're so evil. Heh, he even mixed up the bride's name Sherry with Diane. Who's Diane? Lol.
Anyway, with all said and done, the religious part of the wedding was over, and soon came the moment we all waited for. PHOTO SESSION!
The immediate family. That's the younger brother on the left, the bride and groom, and his parents, who are also my aunty and uncle.
Our family photo. It's not ALL the Ho's, just a small part of it that is close. Can you spot me?
This'll be the first time I've witnessed it in my life, flower throwing.
Not as graceful as it seemed, though. She threw the flowers at a wrong angle, and it hit the roof, bouncing to the floor with a yucky "splat".
My sister and cousin Jacky posing with the flowers. If you think they're hao, see later. Even worse.
Uncle Yew Pun with his moody BMW.
She dreams, he fears.
Hong Fei giving the thumbs up. It feels damn good to be married.
We went back to the house for the MUST HAVE tea-ceremonies.
And of course, more photo sessions.
Later that evening, the wedding dinner was held at Palace of the Golden Horses, located near the Sepang F1 circuit. On the way, my dad was so angry because somehow my aunty and mom who were in a different car phoned up and said they had reached 101 Mall instead. He waited for them at a rest area near the highway, before my mom phoned up again and said, "Oh! My bad! We were in the right road. Already at the hotel carpark."
Imagine my dad's ego flattened. Or in a more crude expression, "A man having his balls deflated."
The cocktail room outside was so wide. About 3 basketball courts put together.
The cousins posing.
I wrote ALOT here...but fucking stupid blogdrive canceled it. I have no more fucking energy to write...so I'll just post these few pics.
2006 has probly been the crappiest year for me in terms of weather. I didn't really give a damn about the heat streak a few years back because as long as the pipes in my house kept pouring out cool water to bathe in, the farmers and cost of food, etc etc inflation prices increasing, didn't affect me, a minor.
Of course, i'm sure everyone's realized what's the crappiest thing about 2006's weather? The storm. Everyday. Every-fucking-day, there's a storm. Not just any storm. Storm which blow off roof tiles, storm which break trees, and worst of all, storm which CUT OFF POWER EVERYDAY. When there's no power, I can't use the computer or the Ps2. I can't even fucking read a book because it's too dark.
The finale came two days ago, when my modem's network card got fried by the fucking lightning. I'm currently using my sister's laptop via dial-up to put up this entry. So, dont expect this blog to be updated for awhile.
I was at MegaMall Speedy a few days ago, looking for a CD from Jason Lo. Strangely, they didn't have it =/
Anyway, I found a VERY nice Soundtrack album from an anime I was in love with. Sadly, I didn't bring enough cash. Then, two small figures appeared on my shoulder. One was my inner devil, and the other my angel.
Devil: Just steal it. No one's looking.
Angel: Nono...you shouldn't steal what's not yours. Besides, can go dl what.
Devil: Shut your mouth, angel! The cd belongs to him by fate. What's wrong with taking it?
Angel: You shut up la.
Devil: Your girlfriend pepet so small.
Angel: At least I got..
=/ I was actually tempted to steal. But being the good boy that I am, I decided to just go home and download it. Haha.
There are times where money is STRANGE to me. I have urges to SPLURGE at times, and also sometimes I'm very stingy. For e.g, I had contacted Amanda's mom to help me with sending her roses for valentine's day. On the phone, I asked if she could help me get Amanda roses worth USD80(Rm350+/-). She kept insisting not so much, while I kept on insisting it was the amount I wanted to spend =.=
Amanda got the roses, but I was still not sure how much, how big, or ANYTHING about the gift. And finally, about 5 days ago, I received an email from her mom. "Roses has been sent. USD20. Hope it's affordable"
Ok. So the prospect of saving USD60(RM240+/-) is nice, but at the same time, I'm not joking when I say I fell off my chair in anime style when I fond out that all Amanda received for Vday is a bunch of roses worth USD20(Rm70). I mean, can you IMAGINE HOW SAD IT IS?? A small bouquet of roses...any girl would go like "RiIiighhtt....uh...nice."
2003 ==
2004 ===
2005 ====
2006 =
SWT. =.= At least now I'll have some extra cash handy. But still, imagining her expression, makes me feel like slamming my head on the computer table and say "NoOOoooOOoooo!!!!!!!!"
Boon: *Nudge* OMG, I just came up with a brilliant plan!
Luz : ...?
Boon: I'm gonna start a meme!
Luz : ...
Boon: It'll be the 5 prettiest girls to list!
Luz : ...5 prettiest...or top 5?
Boon: 5 prettiest! Anyway I gtg sleep. you do la. Tag me k?
-Boon is offline-
Luz : ...wtf
Alrightz, so here I am, possibly writing the most shallow post I've ever written. =/
Instead of putting just 5 pretty girls on the blog, I'd rather list them down as...
"Top 5 girls which I know well and I find attractive"
And in no way does this mean I'm interested in them. Thank you. As for those girls NOT in this list, you can arrange for a parang session with me at an alley. Kindly email me for arrangements at broodingeyes@gmail.com. I judge mainly by them as THEM, how I know them as a friend, the time I've spent with them, got to know them, and personality. And thankfully, none are butt ugly. Yet in the end of the day, we're all equal, and this is just a shallow meme thought up by Boon Heng =) I mean seriously, if I judged jusy by looks, it'd be SO easy because...well, pretty faces are just SO common. But it takes a REAL girl to make you befriend them and yet find them attractive.
I'd like to put Amanda in it, but since it's obvious that she'll beat everyone in EVERY aspect, I don't see the point. =p
Anyway, here's the first one:
Name: Xiao Yu
Reason: I got to know Xiao Yu very well through...urm...actually, I don't know how I got to know her. Hmmm. Anyway, I think the main reason why Xiao Yu seems so attractive to me is because of her OPEN-ness. She's blunt, but in a nice way. There's definitely an emotional side to her, and she really isn't afraid to share and write about it. It's abit different in school though, because I like to say she's always wearing a Kabuki Mask, hiding away her true feelings. She's strong hearted, and I like that alot about Xiao.
Best moment with her: Taking a walk in the park at night and talking about all her ex's.
Cassandra's abit of a mixed feeling. I don't actually LIKE LIKE her,(oh no, Adrian'd have a fit =.=) but I just can't seem to get enough of her. She's funny, pretty, smart, and to top it all off gives you a warm and comfortable feeling whenever she's near. I got to know her in Form 1, but we only got closer in Form 3. I've seen her been through some tough times, and this girl still prevails. She's a go getter who is EASILY dissapointed in herself whenever she can't achieve what she strived for, but that just makes her even more persevered.
Best moment with her: Probably our long ass conversations on the phone back in Form 3. Ah, memories.
I think Colin's laughing out loud. You know you are, you bastard =p. Anyways... I think Li Ching's a VERY VERY nice and interesting person. She's humble, yet lies dark interests in her. She's hardworking, but also lazy. She's quite, but has ALOT to talk about. Besides having been a GREAT help to me when I wanted to send roses to Amanda this year, she's also probably the person I most look forward to talk to each day in class. =) Rock on.
Best moment with her: Debating non stop on MSN. Ranges from anime characters, to politics.
Fern. Fern Fern Fern Fern Fern Fern. Fern? Fern Fern. I don't really know how to describe her, so I'll write it in a short story'd sentence. A bubble was in a field of sunflowers, happily hopping from flower to flower, until it reached a stone and popped.
She's also a gamer girl. So extra points for that =)
Best moment with her: Jogging with her and saying "Huff...huff...stop...cant...go on....*plop*"
Khe Chun. I have NO idea of how I met her, but I think it was somewhere around Form 3 and it involved teaching her how to bowl. I think. Anyways, this girl's probably one of the sweetest persons I've ever met. She's sarcasticly funny, and it's just FUN to tease her about the hair(which she cut recently). I also enjoy talking with her about how she only learnt English in Form 1, and me being a banana, we'd teach each other a word or two.
Best Moment Together with her: Playing basketball often with KC back in form 3. =) She's an athlete.
A wise man once said...or was it me? Ah wtv. A wise man once said that only slaves can truly appreciate the meaning of freedom. And I could not agree any better. The exams cut short basically ANY form of entertainment I had. I promised to myself usually during these kind of times, "After the exams, I'm gonna make the best out of my time. I'll spend it with friends, write more pages to my novel, and study abit."
And once the exam is REALLY over, I'd find myself sleeping everyday, occasionally waking for for a round or two of dotA. Sigh.
Well, least I didn't spend the first day of this short freedom in vain. Li Ching, Ben, Colin and Boon Heng spent the day with me at Sunway to watch Final Destination 3. It was a good movie really, except that my right shoulder still hurts from Li Ching's pressing against it whenever someone is about to die. =.= Some yumcha at Coffee Bean, did abit of shopping myself(pics later), and we checked out a car-mod competition. Surprisingly, the host of MTV's Pimp My Ride "Big Dane"(damn. he's huge) was present to judge the cars. More pics then too.
Watch Casanova with my parents that same night too. And to be honest, I prefered it from FD3. The movie's very funny, and I find myself laughing silly most of the times.
Anyway, some pics of the stuff I bought.
I finally get to read Dan Brown's the Da Vinci Code, though I MUST say I'm very dissapointed with the cover. Too many facts and quotes from book critics. It looks like a Microsoft Packaging. Hope the book content won't let me down, at least =/
This month's PC Gamer Malaysia. =) Lara Croft is back. Hope it's not as shitty as the last title, "Angel of Death." Fucking cheesy title. But still... Lara! *squee*. Yes, laugh at us gamers. We go goo-goo over shapely pixels. =)
I bought two new pieces from BodyGlove(oh shut up):
A greyish shirt. My mom asked me to stop buying black ones. Tempted to, but didn't in the end.
And a new pair of jeans =) I'm going through a Denim phase, k? One thing I love about BG is that the second item is ALWAYS 50% off. So I got this jeans for Rm65 which was originally Rm130.
I also bought a scrunchy. I plan to wear it to school after the holidays.
As if. I found it in my bag once I reached home. Li Ching left it in there. =p
Pics from the car exhibition:
I didn't know Mei Yoong bought her own domain. PLUS, getting McDonald's to advertise for her =p
The hottest couple at the moment. I call the pairing... Booching! Or LiHeng? or Chua Boon Ching? Tan Li Heng? They shared a shake at Coffee Bean, so I decided to take this sweet pic =)
Sunway Hotel's fabulous toilets. I'm a toilet reviewer, didn't you know?
Aightz...that's about all I did today. The next 8 days are prolly gonna be about nothing but sleep...dotA...sleep...dotA... and then some.
Kudos =) Btw, I didn't watermark THESE pictures with my signature url cos I doubt anyone would use them. I think =/
She dreams, he fears.
