My cousin asked me today, "Eh kor, why are you still single?"

I wanted to tell her it was probly because of my face and attitude, but decided against it. I just told her wisely "I'm waiting for the right person. A few girls have asked me before, but I'd rather not jump into things..."

  Well, it's kinda true. I haven't exactly been TOLD in the face by any girl before that they've liked me (as hard to believe as it is), but there have been cases where it's been kinda obvious, though I pretend not to notice and just continue on being friends.

 I've never really pursued any girl besides 'her', because I find myself always comparing EVERY girl I meet with 'her'. Even if I'm not vaguely interested or find the girl cute, I'll still compare, and in the end, 'she' is always better.

Could this be the reason why I've been single my entire life?

  My sister once asked if I'd treat the girl I married (if ever) as well as I'd treat 'her' now in school. And seriously, I wonder too. How'm I supposed to move on when I can't get 'her' out of my mind? Besides, 'she' and I aren't even close, and the only way I get to...erm...how should I say, "express" my feelings to her is with gifts. I'm too shy and too unnattractive to have the guts to even say "hi"...which is why many people think I'm treating her OVER the extreme. Au contraire, I hardly talk to her at all.

 As for steady couples, most satisfaction can be gotten from just spending some short and simple time together, without a drop of money spent. Zakhren and Nab came to my house today, and GOD, it was just akward cos they kept snuggling, and the smallest thing Zakhren did would amuse her and they'd laugh for minutes. I can still smell them in my room as I type this =.="

 So, the same cant be said between me and 'her'. You could say I'm sorta like Shung Jiu, giving gifts as a way of showing affection, but I don't EVEN DARE do what he does. Shung's said that I don't understand how he feels, but I really do. We're not able to offer the girl that we like the comfort and companionship of an interesting person that she'd like, so the only way we can make her happy or smile, is through gifts. It's sad, but it's what we do.

 Seeing Piggy and 'her' last year always being together was pretty gruelling at first, and I'd go home, drop flat on my bed, and sob till my eyes were sore. As time went on, I accepted that she really has her own choice... so there's nothing I can do about it. I can just continue on giving gifts and doing special things for her if I wanted too, but nothing in the world by money could compare to having a person that she liked to be with her.

 Heart, over materialism.

 I've seen boys go like "Wtf la! I spent so much money on her and she just treats me like shit! Waste only."

 Keeping my cool was pretty hard, because I was tempted to tell them off that a girl did NOT ask for you to like her, and she did NOT ask for the presents. YOU, the boy, gave her presents and gifts, and she did NOT ask for them. Accepting them is more than gracious enough, as she's tolerating with you. Any other girl would just slap the gift away from your hand and walk away, but at LEAST she humours you. In the end, you can't blame a girl for not liking a boy back because it comes down to the simple rule that she did not ask for it.

 I say this from experience. If there's a girl you like that doesn't like you back, there's nothing you can do about it but keep trying. If you ask her why she doesn't like you, than that's just a suicide attempt on your chances.

Never blame the girl. You liked her in the first place, so it all roots down to your fault. If you say "she treats me nicely somtimes but on other occasions she treats me indifferently" than you're being a whiny bitch. Refer to my words, She never asked for you to like her.

Never blame the girl. She never asked for it.

- Luzzio, 16, Single.